shelter...

Man... getting a shelter can be such a relief...

I'm staying with a Punjabi widow and two of her children.. in Kandivli East. That means I still pay 40 bucks one way by auto.. but atleast I live in peace. The lady is kind enough to gimme breakfast everyday as well.

Life seems to be settling in a routine.. I have now discussed the modalities of what I am supposed to do in my project with my guide.. and have a fairly clear idea of my deliverables.

Still getting somewhat bored because I dont have an access card or a login id of my own yet.. but it should be happening pretty soon...

More later, then..

Ciao..

Ashi

Ahha..

The good news first : I've completed a week in I One.. and they havent thrown me out yet :))))) Yipeeeeeeeee !!

The bad news : I still dunno a thing about where I am gonna put up after this Friday.. man .. this city can surely drive one bonkers .. whew!

I went home on Friday evening .. just wanted a break from this crazy place.. and it sure did help. Ma was not in Baroda, though. I had the time of my life.. shopping.. watching a movie with Ayan, Nirav and Javed.. and driving a bike at 1 AM in the nite .. eheheh.. Ayan sure was zapped to death :P

Sunday morning I went to Gandhinagar with papa's driver.. there was a seminar there.. met Rashmi, Tanti, Nitin, Himanshu, Gunjan, Sunit, Riken and a few others.. some teachers too.. and of course, Abhishek bhaiya. His story is quite disappointing and depressing.. man.. that college and the authorities there.. they really suck.

Got back on Sunday evening.. firse unreserved (travel to Baroda was unreserved in Saurashtra Janta Exp :P).. thankfully.. found Avinash.. and he was kind enuf to get me a seat.. at a princely 400 bucks :O.. man.. I sure will ensure I have bookin for all weekends now..

Hmm.. life in a corporate can be so challenging.. and yet boring.. its the same old challenges :P.. I dont have an access card yet.. nor do I have an ID.. which leaves me kinda.. high and dry.. so half the times I am escorted around by people :)

Food here is pretty decent.. and thus, I am managing pretty fine.. meeting Sumeet.. and hopefully Ashay as well.. will try and hunt for acco tonite..

More later, then..

Adios..

Ashi

Whats happening...

Things seem to be going from bad to worse... Bachcha's summers are in a big soup.. and his placement coordinator is creating an even bigger ruckus.. he surely deserves better.. I dont know how to comfort him.. :(

The day at work was slightly better. Tanaya was at office before I reached, and told me she had arranaged a 'new guide' for me. I was told to walk to the adjacent building (Paradigm B), and meet Sandeep Olkar, which I did. He's discussed more about R & R with me than any of the people here have. Did help to boost my morale up a bit.. :).. atlast, finally, someone heard me out on what I plan to do for my project.. he also agreed on quite a bit of it, including the survey I wanna do - which pleased me.

I went to the Interface building today to attend a session that Sandeep conducted - an introduction session on HR for the new joinees. Minus the bureaucracy of the security systems in this place (which sucks), it was fun overall. Learnt quite a bit today. But doing this for another two months.. its going to be a challenge. I feel summer trainees are not given enough importance.. we'd be willing to help out so much coz of the sheer enthusiasm only... but no one seems keen.. perhaps because they doubt our capabilities, and dont know us personally.

I've managed to get myself a nasty cough, and perhaps some fever too. Have been coughing like a nutcase all day long - shameful to admit such a think when I am a doc :P.. but stupidly enuf.. I am not carrying any medicines to Mumbai :( Did ask Rishi to take me to some doc.. but he aint free. So decided to chuck it and pick up some medicines on the way back to the guest house. Sumeet Gala or Ashay havent called either.. maybe everyone is simple plain bored of me :

The other buildings are much better compared to the one I went to yesterday and before that - these ones are far more sleek and swank.. and the decor is a lot more trendy.

Anyway.. thats about all I have to put in for now.. planning to have dinner with Kanav before I go back.. coz the guest house sucks. I intend shifting back to Payal's house by Monday if I dont find something sensible. This whole experience of finding acco is rather frustrating. :

Adios...

Ashi

Bored...

Two days of summer trianing @ I One (ICICI OneSource) gone.. am bored to death right now.. been sitting at my comp all day doing nothing..my guide hasnt given me any instructions except to read and figure out some things on my own..

Sometimes I feel like I have no one to go to.. like people around me are tired of me.. felt increasingly so after my interaction (or the lack of it) with Rishi today... I am lonely, I have no acco as yet, and I have no friends to turn to. I wonder if I havent been a friend good enough to the others that I am being treated like this. First the Payal incident, and now Rishi.. what wrong did I do??

I am sincerely hoping Tanaya comes to office tomrrow.. or this boredom will kill me.. I have quite a few ideas in my mind on how to go about the project.. only if she comes and approves..

Pray that I dont go insane by the time this training is over.. I'm getting the feeling MDI was better.. coz here also I have no rest.. and on top of it, I need to worry about acco and food all the time.

:((( :(( :(( :(( :((
feeling so low and sad... I wish I could just run away.. the tragedy is.. I dont even know where I wanna go...


Wanna get drunk and lose senses...

Ashi

Time flies..

Its already an academic year since I entered MDI!!! Man.. time sure seems to have gone by real quick... it seems like just yesterday when Amit Chaudhary was taking attendance on the first day of induction.. and today we have a farewell party for the seniors!

Since I am so pathetic and touchy about goodbyes, I am not attending much of the party, just bits and pieces here and there.. I wonder at times if I am not open enough to change.. or is it just normal to feel this way?

Finally, I have the location for my summers.. I'm going to MUmbhaiiiii :))) Thats a great relief, coz half of MDI is gonna be there, and it should be fun chilling out :) Shradha, my roomie for next year, will also be pretty close by, and since Bhavna is in ICICI OneSource with me, I guess it should be okay after all.

Rishi is in Mumbai.. and I'm meeting him after almost a year - it seems much longer than that - he's so disconnected with the kind of life I have here @ MDI... everything revolves around academics.. I find it difficult to explain to him sometimes..

Bachcha was here last weekend.. and I had an awesome time with him.. never felt so cared for and complete. Did nothing significant.. just watched a coupla movies.. shopping.. hanging around here and there.. but fun nonetheless. Also met Tyagi at TAJ PALACE.. man.. that place sure is grand. I felt like Alice in Wonderland :)) A bottle of water there costs a 100 bucks.. and the steward speaks accented angrezi.. maybe he worked for a call centre before he joined in :P We spent a hefty 700 bucks between the three of us.. but was worth it, specially for the guys.. coz we were right across the pool where a lot of firangs were sunbathing in bikinis.. or less !

Listening to some songs from the movie Black Friday .. music by Indian Ocean :D.. awesome stuff !! Wish I could rock this place with this stuff... only if my roomie dint crib ..

Dushyant gifted me a new digicam.. real sleek and sexy... as thin and small as a credit card :O.. but real less storage space.. SD memory card lena padega.. god bless him :)

Thinking of going to Coorg with ma and papa just after my summers get over.. and probably call Dush over as well.. hoping things work out..

Met Diptesh today.. he was talking of a new company.. sounded very interesting. He also got me a huge Toblerone and Nestle dark chocolate.. which I am really touched by.. but dunno what to do with.. coz my affinity for chocolates.. dark or otherwise, is kinda coming down...

Seems like I am finally getting used to the life here.. and its time to move on again !!
I guess its true.. the only permanent thing in life , is change..

Signing off for now....

Ashi

Dreamland..

Sometimes, I get the feeling I'm existing only in a dream.. like I am watching myself do things - and then I wonder if I really do exist..

I heard in one of Osho's discourses about the 'spectator' way of living life.. it said if you could become neutral to your own existence, if you could become a spectator , you would be able to judge your problems better, and also have a more unbiased perspective to issues. Once you achieve that, solving problems would not be difficult.. In a way, I find myself falling into exactly that mold...

Osho also talked of giving yourself freedom, not restricting yourself with the norms and rules society follows. He questioned the fundamental abstinence from one thing or another in all religions... something I can relate to. Someday, I wish to be able to experience the spiritual energy that man might have left behind in the Osho commune in Pune.

Its a cloudy day here in Gurgaon.. I just came back after a meeting with the Ballals who brought me some food and bags from home :)).. ghar ka khaana sure is bliss :) Planning to call Sunny bhaiya and wish Sonu soon..

Made a new friend called Ayan.. he's here in MDI for an MDP by ABB... he reminds me of the confused life I had before I got here! I'm trying to spend time with him.. it feels good to spend time with someone who doesnt belong to this mad race of CGPA and ranks..

More later...

Ashi

Back to the coccoon..

Spent a great two days with Bhai (hearing abt nayi wali bhabhi, Mamta), and then with Rishi Lall - spent some time selecting some wooden flooring for an arbit friend of his, then freaked out at Mochas :))

Back to MDI this evening.. paid a hefty 200 bucks as fine for missing placecom processes !! :O But I guess it was worth it, more because I coaxed Rishi into buying me a new pair of shoes :P.. but still missed out on Sarojini.. wanna try to make it some time this week .. else wont be able to go till Parry comes.

Parry says the name of the blog is so different, he's gonna have a tough time remembering it ! I had to explain the meanning to him to ensure he retains it..

Realised it while speaking to Bhai and Anju... everyone has their own set of problems.. and no matter how trivial they seem to a bystander, they occupy the person's mind in its entirity.. perhaps then, there is no big/ small problem... no percentiles here :P

Waiting to get to Mumbai for summers.. man.. I love tht city!! And of course.. that stipend excites me :D

Hmm.. all for today...

Asta la vista, baby..

Ashi